The following story might be quite an unconventional post to be sharing on Medium since it does touch on a couple of sensitive and personal topics. However, I have never been one to ignore impulses or gut feelings, although some would argue that all I should do is shut those instincts down through everything that has happened during the past year. Too much has happened to all of us, and sharing our stories is vital to healing.
The reason behind this short story comes from deep within; I have not been active on Medium for quite some time now because…
“To be or not to be, that is the question,”
— William Shakespeare
To live or not to breathe. To thrive or not to thrive. To be strong or weak. To be a giver or a taker. To love or not to embrace. To care or not to worry. To hope or not to trust. To believe or not to think.
Those are the questions.
People often urge you to be strong, to pursue what you want, to be content, to follow your heart, but those same people might be the ones that make you feel weak — that make…
Before you wreck yourself
The hardest thing you will ever do
Is accept everything that has happened to you
But the fights are true
Pain and suffering you no longer can endure
When toxicity is masked as greed
Thoughts fly around at supersonic speed
Screaming and shouting a plead
“Mercy on me I just want to be freed”
You run through memories in your mind
In black and white and all colors dried
Abominable cruelty has made you blind
You do not see heart and soul are intertwined
Your mind is a brilliant liar
Your heart is bursting with desire
You crave something higher
But your body screams ceasefire
My hope is not unheard
My delusions are absurd
Why can’t I be a bird
A faint voice is heard
Still bleeding and scarred
No warmth stirred
Pain and suffering incurred
Just two weeks ago, I found myself contemplating the universe’s demise and the possibility of parallel ones.
There may be very many other universes similar to ours.
The mere thought accompanied surges of excitement that overwhelmed me. It drove me into a profound, infinite universe of my own, speculating what might occur next and where can I even start on this? Will I be lucky enough to witness this ground-shattering discovery?
Yet now, in what seems like fleeting moments, life flashes in front of my eyes.
The last thing I remember was writing these words in my journal right before…
Heavy heart full of unspoken words
Sober mind full of dreams unfulfilled
Heavy tears filled with pain
Serious thoughts drowning you like rain
Heavy burdens you cannot share
Sudden responsibilities you have to bear
The words you cannot share
The dreams you cannot pursue
The tears in hideaway
The thoughts you bury behind red curtains
The burdens you latch on to
The responsibilities you take to act strong
You cannot share because it only hurts people
You dream, but you lock yourself back down before you fly
You cry, but you don’t want anyone else to see the pain
When the truth is finally out, you spill the beans and shout your reality at the top of your lungs.
That’s what you’ve wanted to do for so long, isn’t it? Turn those three dots at the end of your sentence into one. Erase the two misplaced dots. Muster up the courage to let it out, thinking it would make you stronger. Bring you relief. And it does for a moment. That burden has been lifted off your chest, and you can breathe. Because your sentence is complete now, isn’t it?
No more dots, no more question marks, no more…
If you’re a science fanatic like me, then you probably know what’s coming your way. With the advancement in technology and innovation, we finally could capture the marvels of the universe.
This book is for anyone who enjoys a thought-provoking experiment and loves having their brain fire up and spun around. It is not a conventional book by any means and is the product of creativity and intelligence.
However, for anyone who ventures on this adventure, keep an open mind. This book contains multiple controversies, numerous claims, and an overwhelming sense of hypnosis. Scientific evidence supports some of them, some of them are merely a new take on life, and some are common philosophical theories that have been causing a fuss for the longest time.